Tryst with God ......

Me :

It is hard to express how I am feeling right now..
It's like thousands of words resounding in my ears
A galore of unexpressed emotions
I am astounded at my own imbecility
So careless with my heart
Been so mindless that it tears me apart
I fail to understand the obvious
I over-think situations 
And complicate things, otherwise too plain.
I deny the very reality
And fabricate stories with the thread of my imagination
These tears they blind me,
The unsaid suffocates me...
The unheard kills me..
The unanswered makes me mad...
God I seek forgiveness.. mercy is what I ask.

God :
I didn't ask you to mistrust people, I told you to be cautious
but did you listen ?
I didn't ask you to make enemies but to not make friends with everyone who appears charming on the surface
did you keep guard ?
I didn't ask you to follow the bandwagon but to use your brain more often
did you listen ?
I didn't ask you to commit mistakes but to learn from your past
did you even try ?
I did not say to bottle up your feelings but to not let your emotions run wild
did you do that ?
You never listen...........
Now you come to me with a broken heart and with shattered hopes again..
You ask me to heal the pain and to release you off this burden of failure
Even if I do that, will you change ?
You will go back doing the same things over and over again
Wearing your heart on your sleeves...
No you never learn your lessons,
So my child this time -  I'll let you be !!

kabhi kabhi .......

हाँ यह सच  है , तुम पुकारते तो भी न सुनती मैं ,
तुम रोकते तो भी न रूकती मैं
तुम बुलाते तो भी न आती मैं। ।

पर काश पुकारा होता,काश रोकते , काश बुलाते

पता नहीं शायद …… शायद मैं रुक जाती, शायद मैं ना जाती


मगर यह हो न सका ….और अब यह आलम है कि -

तू नहीं ,तेरा गम, तेरी जुस्तुजू भी नहीं

गुजर रही है ज़िन्दगी ऐसे,जैसे

इसे किसी के सहारे की आरज़ू भी नहीं।

I told you so..

The unattended drops of misery and pain,

dumbfounded she stands...

as the turbulent current bangs against the shore.

Her heart in her mouth..

Endless nights and those nonsensical conversations.

Her eyes so motionless,

as she looks towards the wild sea.

The vastness,the depth and unrest state of which vividly defined her state of mind.

Befuddled and paralyzed.

Never had she imagined ,

something like this.

What disturbed her more than the questions inside,

was the GUILT..

her inner conscience that kept reiterating -'I TOLD YOU SO....'

~ Saumya

inn dino...

है पथ धुमिल ,लोचन निराश ..
सोच  विचलित,कंपित ह्रदय …
है धीर धीर अधीर मन।
भर गया  है पीर पीर जीवन ..
निर्जीव है स्पृहा
नीर नयनो से बहा ..
व्याकुलता हरी भरी है,
क्लेशो  की झरी लगी है।
भावो का कर परित्याग,
परछाई से रहे भाग।
हो गए सम्बन्ध पानी ,
मध्य शेष हो गयी कहानी ......
परिचित सब अपरिचित
घुल गए औचित्य।
कष्ट सभी सारे ,
बन समुद्र पघ पखारे ..
शोर मन में अपार ,
आशाएं मर गयी  हार ..
उजड़ गए बाग़-बगीचे  ,
खड़े रहे वो आँखें मीचे ।
कर रहा मन विलाप,
उलझ गए पुण्य-पाप।
सभी फीके है रंग  ,
हुई है माया भंग   ...
समझे कैसे, सार-सार ?
अन्धकार है प्रगाढ़।।

~ सौम्या